i feel like as if im a useless person. regardless personally or in school. in school, i could not stay awake just for lessons. why? for tuition, i don even rmb the way to do maths. i cant even memorise the method on how to do. in personal, im always cheated. why? why am i so useless? to get cheated at such an age. and sometimes i just cant help thinking back to the past, thinking of negative things, worrying about the safety of my family everytime when they’re not home. and others might think tt im being bo liao to think of all these instead of studying. but.. i just cant control it by being naive, being stupid. for the past few weeks, i seemed to be irritating everyone with my actions, the words i said, with my expression. i’ve never been really happy since aug2009. i think those ppl who know me very well would know what happened on aug2009. its really very sad. no one seemed to know how i feel each day. i just don feel like talking to anyone every night. or maybe everyday? it has been ages since i’ve felt this depressed. maybe ppl will think tt because of such a small thing im feeling depressed and useless, and they’ll think tt others/themselves are worse than me. but this is how i feel.